The bud of the bud


Happy 1st Mother’s Day Lexa! Thank you for making our small family a little bigger, launching it farther into the future, and bringing us somebody else to love.

I finally finished Dylan’s beaded mosaic frame I promised in Dear Heart, will you come tomorrow (reposted below).

I’ve always loved the ee cummings quote on the frame. I don’t know who he wrote this about, but to me it echoes a mother’s love for her baby daughter. My favorite part…
here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life


i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

~ ee cummings


Dear heart, will you come tomorrow?

Dylan Jayde

Dylan Jayde

Dear Dylan Jayde,

Today I went to my studio to work on your “birth” day present, a beaded mosaic frame. I’m late getting started because I’ve been so preoccupied. Worried about you getting here safely. Worried about your mom getting through this safely too. It’s been a long road but you made it. Momma’s all right, daddy’s all right, and every day you grow stronger. You are the most beautiful girl in the world. And lucky too! You’ll be a citizen of the world from the start—equally at home in America and Australia.

I had your frame and materials ready. Choosing your photo was harder than I expected because, although I’ve resigned myself to waiting until April to see you, when I looked at your photos, it made me cry. I can’t wait to hold you and know you and for you to know me, from the start—not as a stranger.

I knew what I wanted to do with your beading. But today when I began, the pieces didn’t fit, wouldn’t work, and won’t be forced! It seems that, like most little ones, you will be what you will be and so will your mosaic! No putting things where they don’t want to go. No using hearts specifically bought for you, No! Your present is proving every bit as unwilling to be defined as newborns tend to be. It seems to want to be born alone, without preconceptions.

I’ve placed your photo behind the frame, for reference to color and composition while beading. But it’s as if you are guiding my work. That little bit of personality already poking through has ruined everything I planned so far. Your coloring, form, and perfect little face are ruling the composition and color palette. I’m not used to collaborating on projects! Okay, so my teal color scheme is out, you require an earthier, jungle green leaf. Good choice. Your mommy likes silver rather than gold? Too bad for mom, because gold best compliments your complexion and you do live on the Gold Coast, after all! You chose your own tiny, emerald green heart too, rejecting the larger one I thought would be perfect. Emerald green was my mom’s favorite color and you were born on her birthday, as I had predicted. I connect the two of you because I need the circle to be unbroken. I hope you don’t mind.

Will you come tomorrow? We work well together. Or rather, I have enjoyed following your direction. Also, I could use your help in deciding how to dangle your heart. Until then, I will hold your heart. I will hold your heart in my heart.

Love always,
Your Grandmother

6 thoughts on “The bud of the bud

  1. That was beautiful: the frame, the note to your grand-daughter, the ee cummings (one of my faves).

    Happy Mother’s Day a day early, Diana.

    Seriously, when I have a job (next school year) I am going to buy some art from you… just stunning.

  2. @skyewriter Thank you for your kind comments! ee cummings is a wonder isn’t he? I would love for you to have one of my pieces. When you’re ready, be sure to email me first for my “I’m a MosaicMoods reader discount!”

    I can’t believe my daughter has a daughter. Geesh. Where does the time go?

  3. i love it! my beautiful precious baby girl! happy mothers day grandma! love you and missyou! love lexa and dylan

  4. Oh good! Glad you like it! Wish you were here already… But you’ll be here soon enough. Looking forward to it! Give my baby a kiss….

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